~We Did It~

So...We did it! Were pregnant, again! And yes, I know It's really early and some of you are probably wondering why Im going public so soon! But I thought about it, and I really want enjoy EVERY moment of this pregnancy, cause Kawika says its the last one! So... my reasoning is, that I'm the type where I like to share everything that is gong on in my life. The ups and the downs, and even if something bad happens, I'm enjoying these early moments and I'm sharing with people I care about, and if you know me I cant keep things in very well!

Im really focusing on being healthy for this one, I really don't want to be huge and look like I have had three kids, so here it goes, what and adventure it will be, beIng pregnant again and probably for the last time! I love being pregnant and I love to know everything about babies and pregnancy so Im really excited for another big chapter in our lives!

~Proud Mommy~

So this last month has been a whirlwind when it comes to my daughter Kaiahna! She turned 5 in April and has recently graduated from preschool! Wow, I cant believe its been 5 years since I had my little baby girl! She is so smart and she cant wait to go to kindergarden next year! Im so very proud of her for becoming such a wonderful little woman!
I am also very proud of her because she had her first dance recital on sat where she did a ballet routine and a tap routine! It was the cutest thing ever and she did so awesome! She had a smile upon her face for days! I think she really loves being on the stage performing, dressing up and dancing! It made my heart so warm to see her that happy! she really loves dancing! For me that is huge, I used to be dancer and I Love that she loves it just as I did! I only have to make sure that I never push her to do it if she doesnt want to, but for know Im enjoying every moment!

~Weight loss~

I have gotten to the point again where I am not happy with my weight! I let myself get to a certain point and then I work out and try and eat right, but then end right back to where I started and I'm totally sick of it!  I have figured out that I have an issue with being motivated. I have pretty strong will power in most things in life, but not when it come to my body. For some reason I just cant loose this wait! A lot of it is mental and I think I need some kind of a goal or something! I ESPECIALLY have to loose weight if I want another baby! I will not allow my self to get bigger after having a third, something has to change! 

So..... My new plan, I am really watching what I eat 6 small meals a day, Kawika i going to start working out with me in the mornings! Jillian Michael's one day, and inhale Yoga the next! Jillian is a fitness guru that really kicks my butt on her dvd and Steve Ross teaches a yoga class on T.V. called Inhale, and I love my yoga time! It really helps me with de-stressing, my back problems and my posture, not to mention I feel amazing after I do it!

Along with my diet I really hope to at least loose 15 pounds! My ultimate goal would be 20 or 25, but I'm not sure Ill ever be the weight i was in high school again! I guess I feel like 20 pounds is so not doable! I don't know all I know is I have to do it and I need to change my attitude! If anyone has any ideas for a long term goal or a way to stay motivated let me know please!!!!! Thanks for reading! Sorry no pics but you probably don't want to see the beginning picture of me in a swimsuit before I lose all the weight! You can look at at Jillian Instead!

~He's Amazing~

So I wanted to say few things about my wonderful husband, Kawika. I feel so lucky everyday to have him as my partner in life! I dont tell him enough how much I appreciate everything he does and has done for our Family! He loves me unconditionally everyday and always tells me or shows me, and for that I love him even more! He knows exactly how To love me and deal with my craziness! He is one amazing father to our kids and Im just so blessed to have him! God for sure knew what he was doing when he put him into my life, which reminds me to keep having faith in God with everything else in my life! He gave me an amazing guy and amazing kids so I know he has more wonderful things in store for me!

 Did I also mention that he is an amazing artist! He is very humble about it but I love his art work and Il show it off for him! Here is a few things he has done! They are the only ones I have pics of for now!

~It's About Time~

For a while now I have been really wanting to explore my passion for music  more... I guess you could say I'm wanting to finally do something for ME... not in the selfish way but I have buried what I love to do..(besides being a wife and a mother) I used to be a lot more passionate about the arts, especially music and dance and its really hard to keep those things at the surface when you become a mom. Believe me I wouldn't trade caring for my children for anything in the world but there comes a time when you need to dig up those THINGS that really make you.. well YOU! I cant deny the yearning for music anymore... yes.. i sing at church and occasionally for a wedding but that is not what gives me an experience like no other.

 What I'm taking about is playing an instrument, specifically the piano, even the guitar  (in time) lol! I can see myself learning something so beautiful and mixing it with writing and singing...uuhhh! I don't know i am just yearning for it so badly, I cant really explain it! I can almost see this picture in my head of me on stage or in my living room playing and singing a song that I wrote or a song I love and the feeling i have is indescribable! Its hard to see myself feeling something I don't think I have ever felt before, its kinda strange, but I do know that I cant wait to explore it! The big thing holding me back, is of course money, I need a piano to actually learn on, and that my friends, cost some dough! Ill tell you this though I am making it a priority to budget for it somehow, because the longer I wait the more time passes without me doing something that may make huge difference in my life! 

God gave  me this "gift" you would call singing and having a heart and ear for music. so.. there is nothing that will keep me for experiencing the that unknown language, that stuff that makes you feel a way you cant feel any other way, that chill up spine, those goosebumps, that bringing an emotion from inside literally to life! That.... my passion MUSIC!

~Number 3~

So... Kawika and I are officially trying this week to make our third baby! We have been talking about it for some time now and I'm so excited! We actually tried last month but I think we started a little late and missed when I ovulated. So technically this is month two! It is actually a very tricky thing... getting pregnant, I got pregnant so easy with my first two I was expecting to do it again on the first try. I was so adamant about having a baby in feb and was so sure that I think God purposely kept me from getting pregnant the first time to remind me that I am not in control! So here is hoping this time it will stick! My due date will be Feb 28th if it works and if it doesn't its ok, cause we will do it again! Let me tell ya Kawika doesn't mind the work at all!  HINT HINT! So I will keep you updated as soon as I know!